World MBA Tour @ Sheraton Miyako Hotel, Tokyo
Did I mention before that I have been wanting to pursue an MBA?
Again, I have really shallow reasons for going for these type of geekiness… Like, I want to forget something, I want to be busy, or be distracted from my so-called “issues”. Blah blah blah… The list of shallowness goes on and on… The more I feel lonely and sad, the more I feel I need to do something. Plus I guess I need to find something to replace or totally pulverize all these setbacks that I have. I feel that if I achieve something really really nice and wonderful, most, if not all, mistakes I made in the past will be gone… by over achieving.
Hence, the certification path. One at a time. And then, the MBA. I think it would be the most prestigious. Like if I earn one, I would have the right to self-obsess, and walk around naked all the time (like some kinda model 
). Something like that 
My shallow reasons turned out to be something worthwhile, career-wise, they will somehow boost my career and crush most inferiority feelings I have. And still give me the reason to self-obsess and walk naked all the time in the office. Hahaha. Still shallow reasons! Kidding aside, I want to study again, earn an MBA, take my chances, strive and be the number one, be the best MBA student there is in the world. Ok ok I’m dreaming too far now.
Anyway, in relation to this dream, I searched for the best schools around. And then I saw a link somewhere in the web, and then followed those links, until I found my way to the MBA tour in Tokyo today, tonight. I registered so I can get a glimpse of what to expect.. and some other information. Though I could get them from the net, I wanted to feel the real schools talking me into getting an mba, or insisting me to enroll to their school, how my life would change if I study mba at their school… you know, those type of stuffs…
Souvenirs from the booths. INSEAD, Boston U, NUS, California, HEC..
When I arrived, I confirmed my registration then entered.
The hotel ballroom was packed with a lot of professionals in Tokyo. I didn’t see a lot of Japanese people around. It was packed with foreigners (including me). I was in the United Nations. And I felt really clueless on what to do, where to go… I went to one of the booths, and a friendly staff said Hello. I was speechless, I really didn’t know what to ask. Like, I didn’t know what I was doing there. I just said that I am still looking around, finding myself… It was sad 
I just went around and around, until one nice lady poked me gently and told me that my scarf is sweeping the floor. I said thanks and then I remembered Drew Barrymore’s scene in Never been kissed. Like that loser high school girl with a roll of tissue rolling from her backpack, while the boys make fun of her. It was just my imagination but the bottomline is, I felt really lost. I felt like a lost school girl in a room full of successful business people knowing where they’re going, knowing what to ask, and most of all determined to pursue a dream.
I attempted to approach some booths to talk and ask but for some unknown reason, that part of my brain where wits and intelligence are supposed to be located were nowhere to be found. So I never really got to talk to the school people. I just got the brochures, application forms etc. And went out of the hotel ballroom and find my seat and just read and write.
I felt so small
But anyway, I’m still on… Never say never! 
After my SCWCD, I’m gonna start to prepare for GMAT I guess… Then exhaust resources for scholarships. Sounds like a nice plan to me… I’m just starting. Gambatte!!!
But when insecurities started to blanket me as well, and eventually when I turned 18 and my height started to.. well, give up on me, I bid Ms Universe buh-bye.
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he said, she said, i said