For some unknown reason, these random days of sleeping difficulties are making a comeback. I hate it! I should be very tired and sleepy at this holy hour (and mention the badminton till 12) but I’m not. And I’m imagining a looot. First is my planned haute couture for me and the girls… There is no occasion yet.. my mind just wandered off. 
I drew the gowns somewhere in my desk yesterday afternoon. Let me take a snapshot and I’ll post here…
I'm a Software and Fashion Designer
Seeing my creations made me imagine, hmm.. is IT really my thing?? Maybe I should be a fashion designer 
But oh well, IT pays the bills, and shows me the money so there you go!
I’m kinda imagining more stuffs… no, not really imagining, but planning… Hay Good Luck tomorrow.. oh hello later!
There it is again. A few remaining days, I’m getting my life back. Forgive me, if I always find the need to whine. I feel so tired. I didn’t imagine that doing 3 things at the same time is this exhausting – body, mind – all of it so exhausted ’round the clock.
When it’s all over, I will take a one week leave and go nowhere. Just stay bum under the sun (or indoors), wherever the wind would take me. Enjoy the breeze, chill, and relaxxxx…
In the mean time, while I am still undecided where to go, Im gonna need to go out. Glam it up and go out, party! I miss an all-nighter. I’m gonna work my license out so I won’t search in vain for a driver (which would end up dragging my brother to party with me, which is kinda weird).
Moolah… It’s coming soon and I’m getting excited
Party party party… I miss you!!!
I’m going crazy, hello Sanity, still there?
Little Miss Sanity: Yeah b*tch. Shut the hell up.
Blah! Blah! Blah!
Today is the last day when I get to decide if I’m gonna take that exam or not. I scheduled it to be Wednesday next week. I feel a bit ready, I’m improving my scores on my mocks. Except that I have full of anxieties. Plus, I feel that watching Private Practice episode after episode everyday sends me shivers of guilt down my spine. Because while gushing over the private lives of these doctors, my mind is telling me “study study study!” What a reminder of my childhood.
Anyway, so it’s already 17:22. The Prometrics day has ended. No more re-scheduling. There’s no more turning back… This is it. I probably need to compose myself and gain more confidence. I need to study more. I am telling this now but I’m thinking of the last episode of Private Practice’s Season 2 finale which I will watch later (I’m sure)… Tsk tsk. Wish me luck!
Aside from the exam worries, I’m beginning to worry again for my face. I feel that the zit attack is coming back. I’m a bit stressed at work (Java and .NET don’t really get along in that place called Joane’s Brains). Plus more stress for my stuffs at home. I need to pack things up ASAP. I have 3 more weeks left before the big comeback 
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And, right after I land on my oh so sweet homeland, I’ll just sleep for 4 hours and then zoooom! JLPT4 in Manila. Yep, I took the easiest path for a Nihongo certification. 
I need to get at least one cert for my Japanese! Well, hopefully I pass it. There’s no more reasons/excuses for me not to.
I could actually make the 4 hours sleep to 6 hours. But I’m sure there’ll be a lot to talk about at home. And I will probably enjoy looking at my peeps ransacking my luggages. I don’t know, I am looking forward to that. 
Friends, Romans, Countrymen,
I’ll be out for a while. I’m going off somewhere to soul-search. Actually I just don’t feel like writing or hanging out online coz I don’t like what’s happening around the world now. So I’ll be searching for world peace as well.
I’m so hung-over. 
I’m sure this temporary chorva that I am talking about won’t last that too long. Maybe tomorrow I’ll be back writing again. Who knows?
Ciao for now!
I didn’t know if it’s just because I slept very early, or was it because my mind was full of medical hallucinations. I just finished Grey’s Anatomy.. and yes it’s so sad
Can’t wait for the next season this September! *sigh* too far…
At almost 10 I was already on my bed counting the stars in my head, waiting for sleep. I was already drowsy and sleepy so I slept a little earlier than expected. And in the middle of the night I woke up and found myself in the middle of a dream. A scary dream! I knew this has happened before - the waking up in the middle of the night when the sleep is so early. But last night, there was a scary dream in the picture.
I couldn’t remember the whole thing exactly. As far as I could recall it was something about me being lost in a cave somewhere in the bottom of the ocean and then being chased by scary guys suddenly and then hiding in a house somewhere in Mapayapa Village (that’s in Fairview) calling the police, talking about the address of my location. What a really weird dream. Does this weirdness mean something? I woke up so scared, but I didn’t bother to decipher what it means (like google what the numbers mean, etc…) I knew there were numbers mentioned in the dream, the address of the house or something (but it’s already morning now, so I forgot).
I didn’t get up to at least drive the scariness away (by nibbling something, or turning the PC on), but I chose to just lie down and try to sleep again. Because if I got up, I would see the time, and it would stress me out and force me to sleep right away (and we all know that that would keep me awake a little longer). The more you pressure yourself to sleep, the more you won’t.
Anywayz, I am taking a break from my series marathons. I really need to go back to my reviews… I am way behind my study schedule…
he said, she said, i said