I am back.. after a few years of isolation.. im back.. hehehe.. Well i’ve been taking my work so seriously that i sometimes forget to update my blog.. i actually forget so many things as well.. perfect example of an addict huh..
Well what happened.. hmmm.. there must be something missing in my
entries.. Yeah.. I was wrong again.. again.. again.. History repeats itself.. I kept on repeating these sh*ty rules over and over again so they won’t leave my head…
Sh*ty Rule #1: Never enter a relationship unless you’re absolutely and perfectly 100% sure.. No questions asked.
Sh*ty Rule #2: Lie to others, but never lie to yourself. If the situation calls for honesty… if you feel like taking back what you have just said and done. Do it. Don’t hesitate.
Sh*ty Rule #3: Give utmost care to what is more important to you. Think about your priorities.
Sh*ty Rule #4: Never look for happiness from other people. It comes within you. Sometimes the happiness that you’re looking for is actually there, you just have to discover it.
There I said it.. I know them already from the start. Actually there are a lot of sh*ty rules in my mind… But I have to reorganize my disordered and chaotic thoughts first… I just don’t know why I kept on repeating those crazy stuffs. I really have a stubborn heart (AND HEAD!), I am so eager to see the outcomes that is why I always take risks on relationships… Grr… I often forget to think everything over. There are still a lot to learn. As what everyone tells me, I am still young… More to come.. hehehe.. Just one of my stupid mistakes I guess
Well Mr. Maybe, Mr. Perfect and Mr. Right are three critically acclaimed different people… I don’t want to settle with Mr. Maybe (who else do?)… It’s a lie if I tell here that I don’t wait for my Mr. Perfect… yes I want someone perfect for me… But it might take millions of years to make that illusion of Mr. Perfect come true… Mr. Right.. well I also wait for him… but… it just seems impossible… Right now, I don’t care who the hell comes first… all I know is that I am happy with my life right now… I am aiming for perfection (or even close to perfection)… Enjoying and being ambitious with my career… and I love loving myself a little more… 
he said, she said, i said