pinakamaganda

just yesterday i was having that weird feeling. but now, i’m so loving my life!

i had all the reasons to be sad and desperate. i am so very broke for the nth time. no boyfriend. no “career”. no work overload. etc… my whole body’s achin because my muscles are beginning to develop again because of the free work out i had been up to. i’m becoming vina more and more. but who cares? i still feel sexy anyhow.

this feeling of contentment started with my japanese class just this morning. and boy i am loving nihonggo more. i was able to memorize the katakana finally (after hiragana gosh)! my jap class size is reduced to 1 (ehem ehem). i was forced to study hard because it looked like i was really stressing my sensei so bad. just last tuesday, i felt so teary eyed because her voice turned so loud and it seemed like she was already yelling at me. i was so nervous. before i had my classmates to save me from not doing the assignments and not reviewing/memorizing (bad student). and today, i heard a lot of “sou desu. perfect. perfect.” it really started my day.

before i was worrying about not having a boyfriend for the rest of my life. but now, i don’t care anymore.as long as i’m happy. and for a change, the reason of my happiness is not about boys or any successful “career”.

i am happy because i still have my super friends.

even though i am always broke. i still have a decent and nice job. (i am still looking for a sideline, though. please help me – preferably in the entertainment industry – singer, dancer, comedienne, whatever performance-related)

and that even though we’re having difficulties right now, and even though they’re always angry at me, i still have my family.

haay life…