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So I said here that I want to achieve something fabulous this year.
Since last year, I have been targetting two – one geek stuff and one Japanese-related stuff. The universe became kind to me and conspired to make me achieve the geek stuff last year. But for some reason that I refuse to explain here (because I will surely bleed), I wasn’t able to achieve the Japanese-related one. Even a Japanese boyfriend (still Japanese-related 
) wasn’t destined for me. Although I had always joked about it, I’m not looking for one. Seriously!
This year is no exception. As I’ve said, I’m targetting two again – the same old stuffs but one level higher. Unfortunately, I LOST the drive to study.
One night, while I was reading this review material, my mind suddenly shuts down. I realized that there’s something wrong but I couldn’t pinpoint where exactly it is coming from. For weeks I’ve been trying to figure out where the hell did it all go..? My motivation, drive to learn, hunger for knowledge (or admit it, inspiration for increased marketability)… where are they..?
Last year I had a fixed schedule everyday. It was so routinary that I could still remember how it was even without looking at my calendar. 6-7pm java, 7-730 dinner, 730-1030 nihongo, 1030-12 java. On the weekends, study even more… but took it easy sometimes. I was so busy that time that I didn’t have time to even wash the dishes (so I used disposable plates, spoons.. I’m such a lazy girl).
And due to the slight seriousness of the review situation, I deprived myself from watching the series available already for me to watch (as in deleted them entirely from my hard drive). As many of us must have probably experienced, when we start watching a series from episode 1, it all suddenly turns into a marathon… and then eventually to an addiction. And then, distraction.
I tried to impose the same schedule this year. Filled my calendar with all of them, with the same pattern. But obviously, I wasn’t successful on following them. Now my study calendar just turns out to be a joke because I’m not studying at all! Everytime I get home from work, all I do is just watch SNN, Bubblegang, look for scandals (the latest ones ) and other videos from the Pinoy Channel and YouTube, stalk people, and all other stuffs that are so bum-worthy but are taking so much of my time… and are making me feel guilty because I thought I’m wasting so much knowledge-power time… But well, I had to admit, I’m so updated with all the news going on.
Then I thought, maybe I needed to give in to my desires for a while. Enjoy my time. Just gather enough happiness that can be extracted from bum-nation… Maybe afterwards, with full energy and enthusiasm, I could start all over again. 
So now I have these series on queue… Almost finished Lost Season 4… Then Season 5… Then Grey’s Anatomy (don’t sue me I’m still in Season 1)… Then maybe Heroes Season 3… Then Gossip Girl… and all others… And I feel a little excited about these.
And for now, my temporary target is just to enjoy… and be guilt-free about my time. Pleasures…
Category: Dreaming with you tonight, Oh Boy(s)!
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During my first few months of stay in the apartment, I had always loved to check my mailbox every time I get home from work.
But now, not anymore! I wouldn’t even take a look at it unlike what I had been doing before. Because ugly spammers load it with brochures and magazines and more and more trash that I couldn’t determine anymore what’s the real mail and what’s not…
They’re mostly ads about restaurants, parlors, apartments, deliveries and all other stuffs that aren’t interesting for poor little girls like me. And to think that these fancy ad materials are all in Japanese so why would a poor little gaijin would be interested on looking at them? Maybe add a little more of “Upto 50% Big Sale.. Viagra,Cialis,Oxycontin & Percocet!” or “Make Your Lover Squirm With Pleasure” or “I really couldn’t believe I lost weight in 7 days” type of ads and my mailbox will really look like my yahoo spam mail box (where contents all end up in trash of course ).
But today, I gave it a shot and got all of it out and then I was able to sort 4 legal mails out of this pile of trash –>
I had really planned about putting on some sign on the mailbox. To also save my housemate from the stress of sorting these papers…
I will post somethin. I’ll also have my colleague check my grammar. The next time spammers approach our mailbox and try to put some trash in it, it should shout out:
Reading: Watashitachi wa Nihonjin ja nai. Nihongo ga zenzen yomu koto ga dekimasen kara, zenbu wakarimasen. Soshite, itsumo okane ga atte nai. Dakara, kisha no seihin ni kyoumi o motte imasen!
Translation: We are not Japanese. We couldn’t read and understand Japanese. And we are poor. So we are not interested in your product!
Die spammers die!!!
Category: Seen and Scene, Tokyo Drift
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I was just going over some past entries of my friends… one close friend in particular. I knew I read this entry already sometime in the past. But for some unknown reason, I was hooked reading it again.
It is some survey that the blogging world has brought about for every new year. Questions about what did you do for the year, bests and worsts of the year, who was, what was… blah blah blah… There are a variety of questions for each set. Answers are varied as well… Happy, sad, embarrassing, funny, entertaining…
But most of it actually centers around those stuffs that are worth memorable… or are worth into writing. That specific entry was about the year 2006. And the start of 2007.
I then started to dig my archives if I had my own. Actually, I had the same thing. But it’s not the same survey, it’s just another mandatory new year’s blog entry for 2007. I was 23 that year.
At this moment, I started to ponder… did something change from 2006 to this year? Did I really achieve my targets… I’m referring not only to the material stuffs (since we’re liiii-ving in a material world). But also to the personality development… maturity level… Did it improve…?
I’m quite sad because I feel that nothing changed. 
Maybe it’s just one of those pre-birthday jitters… I’m turning another year younger next month…
Category: Oh Boy(s)!
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Simply, they can strike back impressively… right in front of you… even while pointing at your face!
…and you still end up clueless about it.
This afternoon my rocker boss asked us out for lunch. It is my colleague’s farewell lunch so of course I had to be there as well (plus it’s free, as always ). Since my boss is in the other building, we had to ride the train and meet him at his station. I was thinking about still biking my way to his station since it’s just a station away but I scrapped the idea because it’s getting warmer nowadays. Biking (to avoid the trains coz of swine flu paranoia) is not a good idea at noon. So I gave in, and decided to ride the train.
And due to the same reason of that swine flu scare, I bought this mask pack from the 100 yen store. The normal masks that we see in the picture (those that sick people/healthy people normally use for infection prevention/protection) are all out of stock ANYWHERE. And the one that I got was the only thing left. It’s not at all for sick people, probably used for construction because of the picture in the label. And I like it better than the normal one, because it doesn’t stick to your face, and doesn’t leave any marks at your nose. And the breathing space is a little wider coz as I’ve said, the mouth is not at all sticking to the mask. In addition, the lipgloss/lipstick doesn’t go with it when you remove it. It’s the perfect mask for me. Except for the long metallic thing that I had to remove before I wear it.
So I thought, OK, I’d buy this because I’ll just wear them only in the trains anyway. So today, since we had to ride the train, I used my magic mask.
Now let the bully part begin!
When we entered the train, I separated from my 2 colleagues to sit in front of these Japanese school boys. Their complementary school girls (probably their classmates) are standing beside my seat. I was aware that they’re looking at me. Both groups. And they were laughing. And the boys are looking at one of their mate’s watch. I didn’t care what they were saying because I thought, oh stupid noisy school children (these groups of school kids are noisy in the trains most of the time). I couldn’t understand them anyway so who cares. Then at one point, they were pointing at my direction. I thought it must be the seat beside me which was vacant. I was amused at the 5-6 of them trying to fit themselves in a four-seater seat. So there, I was just watching them quite entertained.
Then when we had to get off, I stood up, and then joined my colleagues to the door. My colleague who was expert in Nihongo, told me right away in Tagalog, laughing: “They were talking about you.” I was cool at first, smiled and thought, oh these sweet boys must be thinking that I’m pretty (or sexy, because my face was partly hidden coz I was wearing a mask). Then he added, “They were making fun of you actually.”
When we got off the train, I looked at my colleague, startled and inquisitive. My colleague told me that they were talking about my magic mask, that these children are somehow aware that the mask that I was wearing is used by construction workers – carpenters, etc. My colleague even supplied me the translated nasty conversations:
#1: When I got to the train and hurried to my seat, school boy 1 jested (obviously referring to me-the masked rider!), “Isn’t it too early for the trains to get repaired/fixed/maintained today?” <then insert evil laughs here>
#2: school boy asking, “what time do the train-fixing-guys usually do some train maintenance?” <so that explains the looking-at-the-stupid-watch>
#3: school boy cracking, “i didnt know that there are women train-carpenters around here…” <insert another evil laughs here> … and… “now the train carpenters dress elegantly…” <insert more evil laughs here!>
Stupid noisy school boys!!!
*bitter*
Category: Tokyo Drift
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Last 2 weeks, the first case of Swine Flu arrived in Japan. I got the news when I woke up one morning/afternoon after a gimmick with my friend. When I read the whole thing, I suddenly got scared to the highest level and almost drank the whole bottle of rubbing alcohol beside my bed to hopefully cleanse whatever germs there might already be in my body. We went dancing the night when that sick sick sickness arrived. I even did the math, the works: 4 people were confirmed positive. 49 people near these 4 people were quarantined. There were 390 passengers in the plane. Where did the 337 people go… Did some of them went clubbing too..?? That’s my worry #1. But… I thought, it was 4:30 pm when the flight arrived. Maybe add it a little more 2 hours for the usual airport stuffs. Plus maybe 1 hour or 2 hours for travel time if they live in Tokyo… So they will probably arrive at home by 8:30, or maybe 7:30. Ok. But.. considering the jet lag, they probably won’t go clubbing that night. Probably probably.. But what if some of them are still energetic after all these arrival hassles and chose to go clubbing that same night… at my fave club…? Now that’s worry #2, and it made me feel worst.
For 10++ days after that, I always wake up checking my temperature. I drink 2 liters of water everyday (I gulp the whole 2-L bottle!)… and drink even more. I take vitamins morning noon and night. I drink pineapple juice. I wash my hands all the time. I gargle regularly in a day… The paranoia was so strong that I get really really worried everytime I feel a little something. Like after I read the article, I googled everything I need to know about swine flu or influenza. Symptoms, etc. Then my stomach ached, and I felt that I’m having a diarrhea (one of the symptoms, they said)… and then I was going crazy!!!
Good thing I don’t have to ride the trains everyday. So even if it’s raining I still bike just to stay away from a public humid closed place. I counted till 10 days.
Fast forward to two weeks after that clubbing. I did not get any fever, and gladly my coughs/colds, which irritated me for some time before was all gone. In conclusion, I am healthy!!! Thank God for that!!
But earlier this week, swine flu cases in Japan reached to 80++ so suddenly! It was out there far from Tokyo, in Kobe/Osaka specifically. And a few days ago, news told me that it has reached 200+ already, plus they’re now in Tokyo! Seems like everyday it’s getting higher and higher… and closer and closer…
The sudden increase made people panic that masks are now out of stock!
I am still not going out because of it. But sometimes I don’t have a choice. Like last week’s show, despite the swine flu spread, I need to attend the show because I do not want to disappoint my boss. Plus, of course, I want to perform. That was last Sunday, doing the math again… 5 days after, no fever… safe so far…
And tonight I still need to go out because I promised my former Tokyo project members to attend a sort of reunion dinner. It was really not good to back out. I told them at first that I won’t be able to come because I don’t have money but it was really sweet for the organizer to exhaust all the efforts to make it cheaper for me (because I complain about the insanely expensive dinner). So in the end I am going. Not at all sad, I’m actually looking forward to meeting them again.. but this swine flu scare is really… ugly!
Now the really scary part is riding the trains… And I have no other choice to get there but the trains. Riding a taxi is stupid.
My bosses in the office could feel my paranoia, and my colleagues’ too… My bosses are actually cool about the swine flu thing. They seem to be calm. But they do have a point. And I might take these points into consideration (taken from my boss’ point of view):
- I was told that the people who died went to the hospital too late so the hospital couldn’t do anything about it already. May God bless their souls.
- In Japan, the people infected were mostly teenagers. Those who haven’t caught any kind of flu yet so they have no immunity against it. Though I couldn’t recall me getting flu before, I feel that my immunity is quite strong…
- And there are no reported deaths yet in Japan. Once detected at an early stage, everyone’s going to the hospitals already and they’re being treated quickly. Plus the good news, everyone seems to be recovering fine.
Despite these points, I’m still cautious on everything I do. I’m not confident that I’m not susceptible to it. Everyone has to be in this same kind of paranoia I’m in now. But my paranoia is getting exaggerated already. It is killing me and is really stressing me out.
Hopefully everything will still turn out fine. I am hoping that this swine flu will simply vanish in thin air soon… err no, since it’s air-borne… I hope they vanish entirely… Or I hope they will fly somewhere out of Earth, and never come back!
Random Thought: Since I’m developing some kind of hardcore swing application, but still paranoid about swine flu, I often use “SWING FLU” in my mind, instead of swine flu. Ahh crazy mind!!
Category: Health is Wealth, Social Studies
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2 hours before the show. Taken from my ugly phone. I’m too busy yet to lure my fabulous friends to share me some photos…
I haven’t formally thanked everyone yet as well for coming. So if you came and you’re reading this, thank you so much!!!
Till next time! Well, I hope there will be another one… I’m quite sad because I feel that it’s gonna be the last.
Anyway, please wait for my exceptional thank you email.
Category: Dreams do come true
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I like it.
Sorry for some people who hate it, some might probably argue with me. When it comes to a movie, I couldn’t really think of myself as a good critic. I’m simply an easy-to-please girl, the reasons that cause me to like a movie is when a) It ignites my thinking and my senses; b) It makes me empathize with the main characters; c) If it’s a trip to laughterdom (when you go out the cinema and you’re still laughing); or d) If I plainly like the novel/series where it is based. Later I’ll probably come up with other reasons… The actors may play some major role in my movie-satisfaction-meter (if the sexiest man alive is in it, sometimes I don’t care at all )
Usually before watching these types of movies (based on novels), I read the novel first. Or if it’s a series of novels, I read all books included in the series before watching.
But yesterday was different. It was a last minute decision when my friend asked me to “let’s just watch a movie later”. Just hearing the “movie” thrilled me so I scrapped all my Friday night plans. Or maybe the excitement occurred because yesterday would be my first movie in a real moviehouse this year. Movie dates happen rarely because movies in Tokyo are insanely expensive. And I sometimes get disappointed because most movies that I wanted to watch take 3 months to arrive here in Japan. When the buzz about a movie is over, when the world knew all about it already, that’s when I got to watch it.
This one, I think, was released worldwide. So at least I can join the buzz for this one.
Anyway, before going out of the office, I made sure I know something first about the novel as a whole, perhaps the plot would suffice. I don’t want to watch it and be clueless in the middle about what the hell is going on. I’m quite slow sometimes. This plot in Wikipedia helped me.
Maybe not reading the book is a good thing. Because I might end up disappointed over the movie just like what I felt in The Da Vinci Code. I knew all the details so much that I ended up searching for these details in the actual movie, wherein I know it would probably take the movie a freakin 5 hours or more if all of it are included. The plot I read about Angels and Demons are good enough to give me the gist of the novel, at the same time hide all the other details which caused me the suspense while watching the movie. Hence, I was satisfied.
Of course I don’t care about all the details for the Harry Potter and Twilight movies because… the boys are too cute to watch so I don’t end up searching for details in the actual movie/s. No offense to Tom Hanks, I like him too (especially in Forrest Gump) coz I find him funny. But Harry and Edward are… well… a little related to the 2nd paragraph up above… if you’re a girl gushing over the same heartrobs of Harry Potter and Twilight, you’ll probably understand.
Category: Movies are Goodies
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I was successful with the migration of my blogs from my blogger account to wordpress (right here). But out of the over 184 entries I have at blogger, I only selected the lucky few to be posted here (but not at all few). I was such such a sick person because most of my entries at blogger are all dramas! All my life’s dramas. While selecting which posts to migrate, I run through the posts and then skip one when I find it so so sad. Those entries are so juvenile, it was a pity for me seeing life that way, at those times. Some of the chosen ones are too sad as well, that’s why I had to protect them with a password (I love wordpress for that). But these password-protected posts mark some sort of a milestone in my life so I had to include them still.
I couldn’t blame myself before because perhaps I found it too exciting and soothing to write it all in the web with the confidence that only a few friends read them. And maybe I was imagining while writing, that I was just having coffee with the few friends, talking about life’s so-so miseries. Now I feel embarrassed even to those few friends.. And to top it all, it was the main reason why I started blogging – sadness. And I learned that spreading the sadness in the whole wide world is not a good thing. Even if it’s my personal space.
So that’s all folks for the April 2005-July 2007 blogging galore. I buried my blogger site, together with all the blue devils that it houses, somewhere in cyberspace where no one could ever get to it.
I’m 25… and slowly moving towards becoming a ”twenty-something”… No more dramas (unless super duper unavoidable). Just enjoy life. 
Now the missing August 2007-April 2009 lines are yet to be filled up… And the pretty little archive lines right there hissing in the side bar will be complete. So from now on, I’m doing the posts-migration selectively, since I’m doing them manually anyway. (Yes it was such a wrong timing for me to decide to migrate to wordpresss a little late because almost all import utilities are not working. And google, even the wordpress forums, wasn’t at all helpful).
And oh, did you notice… the chat box is back too!
Here they come.. the tickets!
Now I just have to decide who to invite… Or maybe torture my friends to come. 
Actually I was having apprehensions at first about inviting my friends to my “concert” of the lifetime because I feel that I might suck. And they would all remember that. And that sucks.
But of course, the decision has to change.
Especially now, about 15 friends already confirmed. And I’m still thankful that despite the fact that it’s a Sunday, they still decided to come. I feel so special *weee*
As I’ve said, my role is not really that sensational at all. I started to feel the nerves when I heard my voice in the CD. It really sounds terrible. I couldn’t even blend with the second voice of Yumiko-san, the main vocalist. I’m starting to drink the ginger drink again. And I desperately hope that the miracle drink will do wonders to my voice. But just like what I reason out all the time: I’m not a professional singer. Hehehe. It’s like celebrity duets, I’m the celebrity!
Anyway I was thrilled to see my name in the band members, labeled as “Vo” for Vocals.
This is really something coz it has been my longtime dream to be a member of a band. If I really have the resources, I’m forming my own. I’m playing the guitar!!! I’m enrolling in a music school, then practice guitar, study drums, study keyboards, improve my voice and play all these instruments! How about that, a one-woman band?! What a crazy idea!
Seriously, I want to sing or play. But life threw me in IT. So until I get the resources to do all these stuffs, I’ll remain stuck in IT. And perhaps continue being a goddess in whatever IT field I’m in.
Category: Dreams do come true
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he said, she said, i said