N things I hate about (^me^)

Sometimes I hate myself…

I hate that I don’t save. I hate that I spend, despite that I don’t have enough. I hate that I feel everything’s not enough. I hate that people don’t understand me. I hate that I don’t understand people. I hate that I have to adjust to them. I hate that I can’t adjust. I hate that I have issues. I hate that I feel that I am the only one with issues. I hate that I always have reasons for hate, but running out of reasons for being late.

I hate that I can’t be perfect. Physically I know I have nothing more to ask for. Haha joke only, I know I still need Belo or McSteamy (for surgery ). Oops there it is again. It’s no priority!

definitely got nothing to do with this post, but is something for mah *eyes*

Generally I have plenty more to work on about myself. You know, all those good qualities that big brother got concerning time and money… It’s in our genes but I hate that I didn’t get them.

I know that I want to change. But I also know for some reason that I can’t seem to change. And it’s frustrating. When you try to do something for the betterment of yourself, and you don’t seem to be successful on doing it… You practice hard, practice harder, and nothing changed, and then you give up.

Giving up, is easy to do. I guess it depends on the context. I know I don’t give up easily on studying and work. I’m obedient, I persevere with my career and stuffs. But how come on self-”issues”, or sometimes life itself, I give up easily. And it gets me frustrated (the most overused word of this lifetime).

Seriously, I wish… I could do something. I wish, there’s a way, a fast forward that will resolve all these, but freeze time at the same time. So I will stay young, but free from all these hate and frustrations.

I faced a challenge today, it was tough but quite cool in the end.

It’s life. As Alanis tells me, you live. you learn.